The desire to excel. The passion to dedicate. The determination to see it through.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008


Guess what, I attended the COMPULSORY Basic Theory lesson even though I passed it 3 years ago. Oh well. Money not so well spent..! Went for training in the evening. Training started very badly.. Wanted to walk out of the range, scream and then come back. Of course I didn't do that. Surprisingly, it ended rather well. Finally found the feeling/state again.

Suffered insomnia! Been a while since that happened! I finally headed to bed around 5am.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008


Had the presentation for IA this morning!

Objective of the day: Ben & Jerry's free cone day!!!

Had lunch at Sushi Tei (first time me eat there!) before heading for our free cone with some FST folks. The food is good but I didn't feel like spending. Too $$$! Spent under $20.. heh. Proud of myself.

In the evening, met Lame&Friends to watch Forbidden Kingdom. For once, I really think it'd be better in Chinese. It's too weird in English! I can't decide... is it supposed to be serious or funny? Entertainment value still okay.. can pass!

Eh? Isn't it Mr I-always-wanted-to-give-him-Snickers birthday?? Ok. Gosh, be seeing him soon. mehmeh~

Monday, April 28, 2008


Peripetia - Everything you knew was wrong.
Quite a cool word.

In The Bucket List, one actor was saying that Egyptians believed that they were asked 2 questions before they were allowed into heaven:

1) Have you found joy in your life?
2) Have you brought joy to others' lives?

That pretty much sums up the meaning of life I guess.

It's like hamsters in a wheel, running to power the lights. They never really have the chance to enjoy it.

Sunday, April 27, 2008


Went to play gun this morning. After that, I went for my bike lessons! Wah, Super hot. Oh, today was the first time I squeezed between cars on a bike! My instructor ask me to do so one! Heh.

Headed home early. Going to have dinner with my family. Wanted to wash car but the queue was so long!

Oh, check out! Quite funny!

Saturday, April 26, 2008


Ok, worked for TNS again. Not gonna mention it anymore. Heh. Came back early and played with my doggie. Having dinner at home..! I'm going to slack. No work for me. I have a restraining order from myself to prevent I from checking emails or looking at my to-do list. I'm on strike for the evening. YAY. Play play!!!

Friday, April 25, 2008


Met pQ for lunch today. Ate at Yishun kopitiam. The first thing she said to met when she hopped into my car was "B***H". Oops. I pangseh her the night before! I forgot about eating with her then headed to eat with CR and Peng. Wah, it's been a a while since I pangseh people right? Or at least I can't recall. Gosh.

Worked for TNS for the rest of the day!

Thursday, April 24, 2008


Spent the earlier part of the day doing spring cleaning! Phew. And still not done. Did some AWC work too. I managed only a quarter packet of instant noodles and dumped the rest away. Been a while since I wasted THAT much food. Not that I couldn't eat it.. Long story.

Spent the evening working for TNS. (",)

Oh. My doggie is so lazy can!!! She eats dinner lying down!!!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008


Went biking lessons then collected patches from Army Market. Hehe, bought pipe cleaners. Need to clean my dear gun.

Wah, my stamina dropped a lot. Shoot 40 shots like erm.. surviving. Hehe. It's okay, it's alright... No fall, no pride...

Tuesday, April 22, 2008


Went to chiropractor this morning. After that, met Chewy and small Grace for lunch at Vivo before heading to Sentosa! We spent an hour inline skating (I forgot to bring skates)! The sand has become more coarse at the upper regions of the artificial beach! It changed!!! =(

Anyway, I think I use the word "anyway" too often. I shall substitute it with "anyhow". Hmm.. However, "anyhow" in the Singlish context means "any old how" in English while I would want to express "anyhow" as indicating that I am missing out some details in a story and am moving on to the next main point or event. Confused yet? Don't BE!!!

Anyhow, met up with XY, Jimmy and LK at some Chinese restaurant at Bras Basah. Wow. I didn't know it existed. Later at night, hung out at ECP till it was time to celebrate CR's birthday. Hehe. Funny.

Oh, met Chiam and his gf (Cedarian AGAIN, let me count his crushes.. 1, 2, pQ, 4, 5, 6!!!) LOL. This small boy...

Monday, April 21, 2008


Went for physiotherapy this morning. So tough one! Almost 2 hours of workout! Posture kinda chiminology. My whole shoulder ached to near death and so did my biceps!!! LOL.

Went swimming with Peng at SAFRA. Hmm. The swimming pool water is.. erm.. salty. Irk. No more swimming at SAFRA. The YCK Swimming Pool tastes better (i.e. chlorine, not salt). We were in the pool less than an hour.. Heehee. The bubble pool is shuang.

In the evening, I met Sandra! She was studying with AL (AJ most pleasant looking girl in my batch.. LOL.. using initials for her protection). She also wanna run marathon. What am I doing (doing nothing about it apparently)?! Anyway, Sandra wanted to movie so we watched "The Other Bolyen Girl" at The Cathay. Quite nice. Oh yeah, Sandra saw this thingy and she thought I should have a photo of it (think shooting target), so she helped me take a photo of it. Weird lar this girl.

Sunday, April 20, 2008


Met the jet-lagged LK for lunch. LOL. We ate at Sakae! Heehee. Got my new stock of Tiger Classic. Now, I just have to buy Heineken and do a triangle test.

Spent the afternoon editing the final draft of my report. The report's finally finished! I had to complete the Student's Log Sheet as well as the Student's Feedback Form. Sad, I can't do the online evaluation excercise to gain the 100 CORS points! Heh. But that makes sense. Anyway, I settled my 15-minute individual PowerPoint presentation already! Ok, I'm ALL DONE with IA work! I did all this in 5 hours. Good girl, keep efficiency and productivity UP!

Waiting for Jan & Pat to come over so we can head out for dinner! Heh.

Didn't run today.. Kena PS again! Half expected!!! TSK!

Saturday, April 19, 2008


Wah, NTU campus not bad eh?
Got pond with fish and terrapins!

Went to National Shooting Centre (NSC) with UNCLE Poh this morning. Had breakfast at NTU Canteen 1 (got lost in NTU AGAIN). Wah. Live firing seems niiice. Damn loud man. I like to see the recoil and the limb shifting up slightly before it falls back into its original place again. I think it's damn cool. LOL. Anyway, we went to see the gun console for the Wii at IMM. It was a rifle kind of thing and didn't look impressive at all. Man, if they had a really cool gun, I'd really really probably get it (3 months of holidays man). Ok, I'm going to plan my holidays. I'm gonna embark on a personal project! HEHE. I just got an idea of what to do. HEEHEE. I'm damn eggcited.

Warning: Lots of rant..
In the evening, we celebrated Tiffany's birthday!!! She turns 4 years old today! Gosh. The theme was "Superman"! They put posters of him around and even had a Superman cake. LOL. When I turned into the car park at Canberra, I was pleasantly surprised to see Jan & Pat and Juliuz, Agnes and H! We all arrived in 3 separate cars at the same time at about 5.10pm (the party starts at 6pm). How cool is that?!

Well, I JUST found out my eldest brother, Justin shot air rifle before. And since 2 years ago, he shoots air pistol at SAFRA. TSK. WAH. I'm amazed. HOW CAN I NOT KNOW?!??!?! HE'S MY BROTHER!!!! I was like.. "HUH? Air? Air??? AIR PISTOL!?!?? I OWN ONE YOU KNOW ANOT???!" And his reply "You own an air pistol ar?" Gosh, the things we know about each other. HAHA. *shakes head*

Oh, and ALL my 3 brothers will be running the marathon end May. Today, they encouraged and invited me for it (again but with more encouragement this time). Bad timing though. My shoulder sure die. Jansen was like "You use your legs to run what!" HELLO. What's with the perception running use legs only huh??? Running is a full body sport. I need my shoulder for arm swing. I think for a marathon, my shoulder sure spoil again!!! So weird. I feel like they're fulfilling some part of my life for me. I saying this not because of envy but because they're my siblings. It's a complex feeling! Erm, and they're really so ONz about it, buying all the gear and training for it. Discussing tips, gears, diet, training etc (at least I could participate in their discussion). Like a passionate team... bonded by blood. No politics, no shit. Pure team spirit (sounds weird when applied to family.. Hmm.) I'm damn tempted to join them but.. *focus* There will be other days. For now, recreational running.. starting TOMORROW (unless I kena pangseh by Seppie, LOL).

Celebrating health.. celebrating life.. because I CAN.


Friday, April 18, 2008


Wah. I think me improved a lot. Got more of the idea liao. LOL. The grouping on the left was Wednesday's. The one on the right was this evening's. Hehe. I GOT LAUGHED AT BY DA JIE AND JY BECAUSE I WAS TRANSLATING WHAT MA JIAO LIAN SAID IN CHINESE TO O-WERN. AT LEAST I UNDERSTOOD WHAT SHE SAID. Bleahz! Haha. To prove it, IN SUMMARY, what she meant was 视力回收... HMMPH!

Anyway, today was my last day on industrial attachment to Firmenich. Super touched man. My supervisors got me a Fila bag and spent much effort in getting it. The Temasek Poly student, Geraldine, gave me a present too (I've only known her for a week). I got to visit the Beverage lab (Mylene and Esther explained their work to me)! My supervisor helped my to call the Savory lab and I went over to learn about it from Peiyi! Cool. They were damn nice and forthcoming in teaching me stuff..! Our Director (my supervisor's boss) dropped by the lab to pass me his business card (I told him I'd drop by his office to get it). At 4+pm, one of the Vice-Presidents came into the lab just to wish me well and talk to me a bit before I leave! He's the one who introduced the chiropractor to me! I have much to thank him for! Gosh. I was thinking of dropping by his office to thank him then he came over! WOW. Last but not least, my supervisors spent HALF THE DAY (no kidding - 10am to 1pm and 2pm to 4pm) looking through my report and evaluating me for the first session and then explaining everything to me in the second session. They had a late lunch with cold food because of that (lunch is at 12noon).

Thursday, April 17, 2008


Had a buffet lunch in the canteen today! It was for one of the departments in Firmenich. I was included for the lunch! LOL. Alison was kind to include me! Yukiko even thought I was a permanent staff! LOL. Yukiko's this pro senior flavorist. Cool. Thank you Firmenich.

In the evening, went to HTNS as I had nothing better to do. LOL. Suddenly decided to have dinner at Sunset Grill with Uncle Ruiz and Da Jie. LOL. Drank 3 bottles of beer. The "Little Creatures Bright Ale" was NICE! Fun FUN. Had FUN.


Wednesday, April 16, 2008


FINALLY. Jaime's back!!! ONE MONTH NO PLAY GUN but now I'm back! LOL. Training wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be!!! Far from what it was but acceptable (to me at least).

Tuesday, April 15, 2008


I had lunch at Crystal Jade with Eugene (Marketing Director; 国王) and his 七公主 (Kim Peng, Annie, Joan, Peiwen, Susan, Carel, Remah). LOL. Joan's birthday today! Some part of it was my appreciation lunch part 2. FOC. Thank you Firmenich. (",) My boss told me that I'm the only attachment student who gets to eat so much. LOL. I'm damn lucky!

Monday, April 14, 2008


I had an appreciation lunch with my boss and mini boss at Ichiban at IMM today! We ordered quite a lot (sashimi, set meals, side plates...) FOC of course. Thank you Firmenich. (",)

Sunday, April 13, 2008


Had a quick lunch at Khatib (below Sandra's block) then we headed to my place. We had some work to complete before heading out to play. Managed to complete 1/5 of my IA report and edited and printed the final version (I hope.. this is like v5.0) of my "homework" for my supervisor. Anyway, we watched "Definitely, Maybe". It was okay I guess! Love story thingy again, haha. Had dinner at Mad Jack's. Ate the burger there (supposedly the TALLEST in town). I believe it. It's the ONLY burger I can't chew down on all the layers (I can do that that with Carl's Jr burgers). I had to eat it a few layers at a time. THREE chicken patties. Not bad.

What happens if a several coincidences happen one after the other and they all point you in a certain direction. Directions that you were looking for on a map. Is it all one big coincidence?

Why people get addicted to cheese..
(from the radio, supported with articles from the internet)

Cheese has high levels of the protein, casein. Morphine-like opiate compounds called casomorphins are encapsulated in casein. Hence cheese may be addictive. Hmm, explains why so many of us love cheese. Some theorize that these opiates are responsible for the mother-infant bond that occurs during nursing.

WARNING: Religious content...
There's these few priests who have touched my life greatly in this past few months. All they did was preach. "Were not our hearts burning within us while he was talking to us on the road, while he was opening the scriptures to us?"

There's this particular priest (he's almost 70) but young at heart. Our priests command a pay (or rather allowance) of about $400/month. He's a great speaker with a sense of humour. He has a high EQ and selects his words very well and seems like a highly intelligent man. Sophisticated. I think if he was in the corporate world he would have commanded a big fat salary. In spite of this, he's so happy. Truly happy. Every time I hear him preach, I always think he'd be doing very well by society's standards if he wasn't a priest.

There's another priest who's a great speaker as well. About 30 years ago when he was thinking of joining the priesthood, his friend told him "You can't be a redemptorist (an order of priests who are well known for their ability in speech), you can't speak!" Quite amazing how he's transformed. I'm glad they're in the priest hood, I really needed to hear them preach. Christian optimism. I have much to learn.

They pursued what they really wanted to do in life, against societal pressure, perhaps against the wishes of their relatives. We pass through but once... We can't add more days to our life but we can add more life to our days...

Anyway, I love this song from Linkin Park. Loved it the first day I heard it at HMV (just a week or two ago). Love the lyrics.

Leave Out All the Rest by Linkin Park

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

Saturday, April 12, 2008


Headed to Novena in the morning then I went swimming! Saw Julius, Agnes and Horatius at the swimming pool! They were leaving when I came! Had a happy swim of 15.5 laps! Decided not to chiong since I haven't done sports in a while. Man, I need to visit Sentosa. I'm too pale and white!!! Need a tan!!!

Anyway, I visited Bike Asia 2008 (motorbikes and bicycles)! The bikes are... very... Cool, admission was free for ladies from 11am to 3pm, if not I'd have to pay $8 (student rate). CHIO. Ok, that's motivation for me to resume my bike lessons! I need to grow bigger!!! I can only ride up to 200cc with a Class 2B license! For once in a very long while, I wish I was bigger! Visited the John Little sale there as well and bought a whole lot of snacks. Heehee.

Ok, I heading out for dinner at Ah Seah Eating House (a coffeeshop in Serangoon) with pQ, rZ, Nick and lingling! LOL. Fun. Love porridge!

This must be the bike Poh was talking about. Interesting.

Cool scooter. First heard about it from HY.


I like this.

I like this more.

I really like this.

I like this best! Fierce.

Friday, April 11, 2008


Met pQ for dinner! We went to town since she was in the town area. Been a while since I hung out with her there! So much has changed at Raffles City basement! Gosh. Anyway, we ate at Thai Express Bistro. pQ's choice (as usual). I was thinking to myself before meeting her that I was crazing for EVERYTHING except Thai Express then we ate there. HMM. Haha. Ok, not that it was bad, I just didn't crave it. Well, at least I got a beer. Was craving for one. Haha. Drank Singha beer for the first time.

Thursday, April 10, 2008


And he wrote, "Back to Sports."

Some naming...!
My car = Valen
My gun = Tinus
(.") Valentinus - means healthy, strong (".)

I'm gonna use Tinus (sounds weird for a gun) from 16 April 2008 onwards!!
I'm gonna run!!
I'm gonna play basketball!!
I'm freaking back to sportz!!
YAY!!!! *bursting heart*

Wednesday, April 09, 2008


Went for dinner with pQ, ling ling and baby! Baby is already Primary 4!!! Gosh. Anyway, ate at Yishun kopitiam.

Oh, my father gave me an Osim iPen! LOL. Someone gave that to him. (",)

Was just going through some stuff.. And I think this is worth repeating:
"Too much dreaming. You keep reaching for the stars but figured all you wanted was solid ground when you've lost sight of the ground. Simple, basic needs. You can't always get what you want and these are usually the simplest yet most complex aspects of life. The easiest to receive yet almost impossible to achieve..."

"Find strength in remembering other yesterdays." Yes, that's what I've be meaning to say.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008


Went to NUS for a dialogue session with the Head of SRC this evening. Anyway, did some work for my Industrial Attachment. To my horror (ok, I don't really feel horrified yet), I really have A LOT OF HOMEWORK. My attachment has some work to do on top of the standard report and presentation. Jialat, I need to submit soon. Ok, relaxin` Chiong soon. Let's keep efficiency UP!

As a kid, I always thought I would one day change the world.. Have you all seen the movie Pay it Forward? If you haven't, I suggest you rent the VCD and watch it. A little too idealistic? It just might work... One idea, domino effect. Slowly but surely. As in Christianity, we've received so much and we can't exactly pay it back.. So I guess that leaves us with paying it forward...

Strive harder.

Monday, April 07, 2008


I got a new best friend! A really hyper one that runs REALLY fast. I think I have to train to keep up! Good girl! Father named her Xena (don't ask me why, ask my father).

Anyway, had dinner with Nicholas this evening. Ate at Hog's Breath Cafe! Ate the combo which was... a lot! Had a big appetite today. Had fun...!

Sunday, April 06, 2008


Went for KTV with some shooters in the evening. Party World has a lot of English songs! Anyway, I think I can read a little more Chinese now.

Disappointment - This results due to a certain expectation of how the world, people or things should be, whereby there exists an inaccurate perspective of reality. The word "disappointment" often puts the receiving party on a guilt trip when it is actually our unrealistic demands that have caused the emotion. It is better to admit that we were disillusioned.

Disappointment also implies a sense of hopelessness whereby you have succumbed yourself to the fate of external factors and was therefore disappointed. As for disillusionment, you would be able to recognize that you have created a false impression of reality and would then be able to adapt to reality.

"I was disillusioned."

"You disappointed me."

Which one makes you feel worse? I guess expressing disappointment tends to shift the blame to others whereas disillusionment makes us take responsibility for misinterpreting reality. The use of "disappointment" makes the receiving party feel inadequate, ashamed, unworthy, etc. The effects are even more devastating as we usually use it on those we love the most. It is the people that are closest to us that we set such expectations upon.

‘Thoughtless words can wound as deeply as any sword, but wisely spoken words can heal.’ (Proverbs 12:18)


Do we change the world?
Or does the world change us?

Saturday, April 05, 2008


Went for physiotherapy this morning. Guess what, Pei Jin (Cedar Sprintz) was on student attachment to my physiotherapist! Damn weird! Haha. Anyway, she walked me through the excercises. Weird weird. But quite fun to know someone! Quite qiao lor. She learning pole vault now lor, that's damn cool! Nvm, shooting also very cool. Heehee. Just remembered, she prefect last time! LOL. Pleasant girl.

Anyway, today was design day! Spent the day with CN for designing. Hehe.

Friday, April 04, 2008


Today feels like a PARTY DAY!!! Woohoo! Haha, I'm home drinking shots of red wine. Yes, shots. Yes, red wine. Felt like having shots and wanted to finish up the wine. Wanted some Tiger Classic but I've finished them. They're sold exclusively at DFS. Damn. I have to travel to buy them!

Check out the Chinese White Wine Liqueur Chocolate... Courtesy of the food in the pantry. Didn't know they had such chocolates!!! Ok, I've got to be careful lest I become an alcoholic!!!

Bomfunk mc's Freestyler rockin' da hse!!!

Thursday, April 03, 2008


Met Kathy after work today! Wah, the rain very big lor! Gosh. Wet Wet.. Even with umbrella!

Watched "Three Kingdoms: Resurrection Of The Dragon". Not bad. Too bad I don't know much about Chinese history. Oh well! Still nice though.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008


Not everyone can get to where you are now..
And you almost didn't make it.
Thank God for life...

Tuesday, April 01, 2008


Went to the dentist today! Spent a BOMB again! GOSH. I feel broken up physically. After that, met Sandra for dinner and to watch "Vantage Point"! Man, the show's damn good! As the poster describes, "8 strangers. 8 points of view. 1 truth." Anyway, it's April Fools Day! Didn't play any jokes this year though. Gosh, I've changed... It's this inevitable thing called age.. or is it?

Break my body.
Break my heart.
Never break my soul...