The desire to excel. The passion to dedicate. The determination to see it through.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007


I had my first CM2142 (Analytical Chemistry) lab today. I broke a beaker. I was shaking off the water after washing it and I smashed it against the sink, breaking it in my hand. It was the first time I broke glassware in NUS.

On my way out of school, as I was exiting the carpark, I saw Emily. Usually I see people when I'm driving in my car but they don't see me. Anyway, I thought I was hallucinating until she saw me! Ok, too much excitement and enthusiasm.

Anyway, after AWC training, we went for dinner/supper. There was a grand total of 19 of us! Amazing!

Tuesday, January 30, 2007


I finally wrote the draft for my application essay (NUS-in-Yale Summer Programme)! After that, my father and I went shopping at IKEA.

After school, I met Rebessa and we watched "One Last Dance". The movie was too profound and confusing but it was entertaining.

Monday, January 29, 2007


Footprints on the escalator!

Just to clarify, I was forced into taking these photos of pQ!

Well, I finally dragged myself out of bed real early the first time this semester. I woke up at 5.30am! Actually, I intended to wake up at 5am but I snoozed it! I woke up to do some studying. I had GEK1042 (Intellectual Property in Cyberspace) quiz this morning. It was ok I guess.

An observation: Most of the people studying in the Science Library are alone and their mobile phone activity is low in contrast to the people at the Central Library where people usually study in pairs or groups. No offence to anyone. Just an observation!

Anyway, Apocalypto is a very stressful movie. Ok, I need to revolve my life around my academics. Therefore, I need to finish up blogging and do some school stuff. Goodbye.

One more thing.. I'm officially on a 1 month (from this moment till the end of February) ban from attempting to socialise. My heart and my academics can't take it!!! I'm throwing out my right heart. My left heart's still here, has been and always will. =)

Sunday, January 28, 2007


Titus made a new friend! Let's call him Titus' Friend. He has other friends but they can't slip through and enter my compound since they're not so tiny. My father chased Titus' Friend out but he slipped in again.

Today I went to East Cost Park to teach skating.
Today I talked to pQ on the phone for a very long time.. Tsk. More than an hour. I guess the last time we did that was when we were Secondary 1!

In the evening, we (Pa and I) went for dinner with Jan & Pat! We tried a restaurant at Mornington Crescent (in Seletar Camp). My brother, Jansen was damn funny. He said he would get a shock if he sees me in town with some guy with a goatee!!! Haha.. He'll probably try to scare the guy away (any guy he sees with me and yet he has high hopes of me getting a boyfriend. How considerate.) Well, that's what big brothers are for right? To scare the boys away? Haha.

Something funny...
A man walks into a pharmacy and wanders up and down the aisles. The sales girl notices him and asks him if she can help him. He answers that he is looking for a box of tampons for his wife. She directs him down the correct aisle. A few minutes later, he deposits a huge bag of cotton balls and a ball of string on the counter. She says, confused, "Sir, I thought you were looking for some tampons for your wife? He answers, " You see, it's like this , yesterday, I sent my wife to the store to get me a carton of cigarettes, and she came back with a tin of tobacco and some rolling papers; cause it's sooo-ooo--oo-ooo much cheaper. So, I figure if I have to roll my own ........ so does she.

Saturday, January 27, 2007


Double *gasp*!!

In the morning, I attended a course conducted by Science CBLC (Computer Based Learning Centre) in NUS. It's a basic course for Adobe Premiere Pro 2.0 (video editing).

The world hates me today. pQ is my witness for that. Well, not even being bothered enough to hate me is probably worse! When I reached MacRitchie, they were having SAAA Cross Country and I totally lost my mood to run since they blocked up almost the entire area. Well, anyway, I went over to pQ's place to "study" but we obviously did not study. We were playing with Jason the dog, sms-ing and talking to funny people about funny things, eating, drinking, etc. Today was a fine day. I got fined (again) for parking - $6.

Perhaps the best thing that happened was that I met Sui Hui! We're going to run (probably jog on my part) next Sunday. Finally.

As for the next best thing that happened.. that's a secret!

Look at this gloomy day. I could mash the world into tiny balls of potatoes. But that can wait. First, I need to study and get some other stuff done. I need some SELF-IMPOSED discipline.
Sitting in my car listening to the raindrops as they pelt down on my windscreen while watching them merge with other droplets and trickle down the glass. A waste of time? Time that needed to be wasted.

Friday, January 26, 2007


On traffic jams >>
pinch of accidents + sprinkle of rain = peanut butter strawberry jam

Look at what Titus did to my white pair of jeans early in the morning!!!

The songs on the radio are excellent today! My sole companion to school >> the radio. Maybe I was just in a good mood. I've been in a good mood these few days! Anyway, here's an old song I heard..

Friday I'm in Love by The Cure

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...

I don't care if Mondays black
Tuesday, Wednesday - heart attack
Thursday, never looking back
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday, you can hold your head
Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday - watch the walls instead
It's Friday, I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday, I'm in love

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Thursday, January 25, 2007


Well, actually this was yesterday's news. I forgot to put the photos up. It was the first time I used an autopay machine! These are going to be obsolete soon I guess! Anyway, I spent some time in the Central Library this afternoon to get some work done. Keep feeling sleepy. Tsk. Anyway, I met bex after that for dinner.

Creative thought from bex: "I can make a toilet" >> See photo below.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007


In the morning, I went around town and the east side of Singapore. In the evening, we played badminton! We consists of CK, me, Linus and a sweet girl (I forgot her name)! Oops.. After that, I had dinner at CK's place. Good food!!!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007


I finally got my timetable all planned out. I don't mean the school timetable. It's my 24-hour timetable. Goodness, I have so much work to catch up with, plus a quiz on Monday. Moreover, I keep getting distracted with involving myself in leisurely activities. I've already filled my term break with a cruise and now I'm already thinking of the mid-year holidays. Tsk. Someone slap me and drag me out to study. Tsk tsk. pQ's more hardworking than me this semester. Well done!

Anyway, I agreed to meet Mr Ivan Foo for supper at Jln Kayu. I'm getting fat. Good thing I'm playing badminton tomorrow! It's my day off from school tomorrow and I'm looking forward to getting lost driving around the east side. (",)

Update: My car will be ready for collection on the 2nd/3rd Feb.

Monday, January 22, 2007


Me, myself and I. A seat of solitude.
pQ's got a new haircut!!! This time, it's nice!

After school, I went downtown to meet Bex to eat. We ate Thai food at Food Republic. Poor sick girl.. take care!

Sunday, January 21, 2007


The photos are up at! Click on the link and have a look!

In my church's (SVDP) toilet.
It's the first time I see a sign that asks you to flush AGAIN.

From the Library @ Esplanade.

From Pasir Ris Park.
Well, my skating lessons got cancelled again. So I'm waiting (not exactly waiting, I've got lotsa stuff to do) to go to Pulau Ubin to cycle with Ivan! I'm back. It was fun and dinner was good as well. We had dinner at Lucky Plaza!

More signs.. From Pulau Ubin:

Saturday, January 20, 2007


This morning, I participated in the Singapore Universities Meet (SUM) which is a friendly competition between NUS, NTU, SMU and Ngee Ann Poly. For air pistol women, we won 1st placing for the team. I won the individual silver and QL won the gold! Congrats to her!

I was starving after that and headed home for a quick lunch before leaving for town. I walked around Suntec a while before meeting pQ to study at the Library @ Esplanade. As usual, I studied, she slept. Well, to give give her some credit, she studied a little! After sending pQ to Odeon, I went for dinner at some foodcourt at some alley.

I got a whole lot of stuff on my to-do list. The first item up next will be to upload some photos from my camera. To bex: sorry for lagging.

2-liner lyrics:
You used to be the sunshine in my life,
Now, you're just the tear in my eye.

You and me
We come from different worlds
You like to laugh at me
When I look at other girls

Sometimes you're crazy
And you wonder why
I'm such a baby cos the dolphins make me cry

But there's nothing I can do
I've been looking for a girl like you

You look at me
You've got nothing left to say
I'll only pout at you until I get my way
I won't dance
You won't sing
I just wanna love you but you wanna wear my ring

Well there's nothing I can do
I only wanna be with you
You can call me your fool
Only wanna be with you

Put on a little Dylan
Sitting on a fence
You asked me what I meant by
said I shot a man named Gray
Took his wife to Italy
She inherited a million bucks
And when she died it came to me
I can't help it if I'm lucky

Only wanna be with you
Ain't bobby so cool
Only wanna be with you

Yeah I'm tangled up in blue
Only wanna be with you
You can call me your fool
Only wanna be with you

Sometimes I wonder
If it will ever end
You get so mad at me
When I go out with my friends
Sometimes you're crazy
And you wonder why
I'm such a baby yeah
The dolphins make me cry

Well there's nothing I can do
Only wanna be with you
You can call me your fool
Only wanna be with you
Yeah I'm tangled up in blue
Only wanna be with you

Friday, January 19, 2007


Today was the 3rd and final day of the bazaar. Big thanks to all my friends who supported Project: Get FAT! I hope the food was up to standard for you guys! Anyway, it was a really interesting project with crucial learning points. After the bazaar, bex and I "celebrated" by eating steamboat!!! I'm rather tired so... Good Night!

Thursday, January 18, 2007


Day 2 of the bazaar. Please refer to '3girlsontheroad' link AGAIN. Tired again.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007


Day 1 of the bazaar. Please refer to the link '3girlsontheroad'!!! Tired.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007


After 2 hours of lessons, I went for AWC training. I finally made a reservation for a CRUISE which I will be going for the first time. Will be having a 3D2N study cruise with pQ during the term break!

Project: Get Fat!

We're embarking on our first fundraising project!'three girls on the road' will be launching "Project: Get Fat!" at the Sports Bazaar at Central Forum in NUS from 12noon to 6pm from 17th to 19th January (the coming Wed to Fri).
Our Menu:
Cheesy Melt
sausage bun with generous cheese toppings & with your choice of chilli sauce/mustard/ketchup.
Fried Chicken Wings
piping hot juicy chicken wings marinated with rare spices. cooked (on the spot!) to perfection, with just the right amount of tenderness & crisp.
Ham & Cheese Delight
classic ham & cheese with toast. perfect for breakfast, in between lectures, during lectures & after lectures.
Maggi Mee In-A-Box
yes, but maggi mee with a twist. you will never think of maggi mee the same way again.

Monday, January 15, 2007


This afternoon, Jimmy and I watched Deathnote 2. What a long but interesting movie. After that, met Bex in the evening to pass her stuff.

Sunday, January 14, 2007


I spent the day scouting for logistics for the bazaar with Ivan. We were supposed to teach skating but it got cancelled again due to the rain.

Anyway, Ivan thinks I could win a Nobel Prize for the following thought: People are courteous to others that they've just quarrelled with while in the midst of patching up. People are not courteous to their closer friends.

Saturday, January 13, 2007


Read between ** for the shorter version. The rest is crap anyway.

*At noon time, I arrived at bex's place and we had our board meeting for '3 girls on the road'! Just a reminder, we're selling GOOD FOOD at the Sports Bazaar at Central Forum from 17 to 19 Jan (this Wed to Fri), 12noon to 6pm! Please do support us. For those who requested my presence, I should be around all day for Wed, after 2pm for Thurs and after 4pm on Fri (this is all tentative).

In the evening, I met up with my Cedar 4/O classmates! We had steamboat and many laughs but I had to leave early to go over to my brother's (Jansen) place. I left after the steamboat but they went to the new shopping complex at AMK and then to Clara's place.*

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cos after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life.

I caught a glimpse of my old self today. Rational old me. The person who thinks with her head and not her heart. Well, I almost forgot that I had learned later in life not to make decisions based solely on my rational self but to inject some heart into it as well. When rationality conflicts with the heart, well, I suppose the rational side wins. It's easier to reason and substantiate what the head wants rather than what the heart wants. On hindsight, it was my emotions that had taken over. My already angry self just went into a state of frenzy. I should have taken advice and stayed in isolation. That way, we're all better off.

There's too many hazy areas. Too much doubts. Too much futile analyses. Too much time wasted on endless thoughts. Too much energy to fuel this roundabout. Too many smiles and jokes to hide the pain. Too much tears shed on assumptions. Too many things that I don't want to be sure of but sometimes I just need some answers whether I like them or not. It's time to stop living in denial. Let's just say I've succeeded in many other aspects of life but in the one aspect which matters the most, I've failed. I'm not perfect. Congratulations to me, myself and I. It's in pieces again.

Friday, January 12, 2007


In the evening, I went for AWC training. After that, I met up with rZ and we ate at Ah Seah. After that, she bought some durian puffs and forced me to eat them at her house. She wants me to get fat. Tsk tsk.

Thursday, January 11, 2007


It's my first day at school for the semester! Today, we learned about shelf life in FST2106 (Post Harvest Food Processing - i think that's the module name anyway). The shelf life of an NUS student is as such (think in the context of the demand of boys hitting on girls and vice versa): In year one, the student is like an RBR (red spot) book. In year two, the student is a book on the open shelf. In years three and four, the student is in the closed stacks section. Interesting.

Anyway, I secured all my textbooks!!! Congratulations to me. Fast. Efficient. The way I like it. Oops, self praise again. I'm narcissistic!

In the evening, I watched Blood Diamond. It's a bloody good show. The staff at GV Bishan were very friendly today. Plenty of smiles from the counter staff and the ticket tearing staff! Friendly with eye contact and courteous vocabulary. Excellent!

Counter staff: May I have your IC to verify your age.
JJ: Sure.
Counter staff: You look very very young! Just like me!

There's a whole truckload of work for me to get down to task but I'm leaving that till tomorrow. I'm chilling with my can of cold Tiger Classic - the best beer in my world. I've had trouble finding it at the regular shops in Singapore, but thanks to DFS, I found my childhood beer.

To my fellow Cedarians:
I think by now you must have heard about Cedar having their 50th Anniversary dinner. It's a bit pricey but love is more precious than money right? And we love Cedar right? Ok, not convincing enough, I know. But, I know we want a mass gathering like the BBQ organized for our entire batch by the NCC girls so... this is a great opportunity! Haha. Ok. Let's go!!! Go back together ok ok ok?!??!?!??! Cedar rOx!~!!!~!

For trackers, we can get our tix from Sok Hong, if not I think your form teachers should have contacted u guys. Anyway, call me or something! Let's discuss!!! Haha.. Oops, too much enthusiasm. Ok. Once again, Cedar rocks.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007


Let me explain the tshirt that I've just made. I'm supposed to be facing you when I talk to you so you will the the front side of the cow. As I turn to walk away, you will see the backside of the cow. It aims to produce a comical effect. It's like flashing a cow's butt as I walk away! It's a simple design simply made by buying iron-on patches from the craft shop at AMK and a green Giordano tee. Green because grass is green for which the cow grazes.

Nice Teeth by Titus.

My huge stack of notes!
All of them freshly printed!


I just returned from a 6-day (4th to 9th January) trip to Hong Kong! I came home around 1am in the morning. It was a trip full of shopping!

Well, Hong Kong is very similar to Singapore. Here's the highlights of our (Rebessa, yQ, ME) trip:
  • at17 concert: 'Just the 2 of Us'
  • HK Museum of History
  • Ocean Park - a fantastic amusement park with joy rides and amazing aquatic life
  • Shopping
    • Causeway Bay
    • Mong Kok
    • Yau Ma Tei
    • Tsim Sha Tsui
  • FOOD: The food in HK is fantastic.
We stayed at the Cosmo Hotel (4-star) and travelled mainly by the MTR.

Anyway, today was a hectic day. There's so much loose ends to tie up before I return to school. I'm still not done with my school preparation. Most of the 2nd hand textbooks are sold out!

PC1327 Science of Music compulsory text
FST2201 Human Nutrition compulsory text.

For PC1327, the CO-OP has NO information as to where to get this text and are currently locating the text. I couldn't get a time frame from them as to when they would have the books in. Perhaps some kind soul would let me zap their text? Haha. Please volunteer. I'll give you a sweet! [Updated: I just got a seller for the PC1327 text!!! Yay!]

I am in a melancholic mood, drinking some vodka and listening to some downloaded music (which I paid for). Well, apart from settling my school stuff, I went to school with pQ and settled more stuff and ate there. After that, we chilled at Ang Mo Kio. We went to explore the new shopping complex. Hopefully tonight, I'll be able to make my tshirt. It's lame but I like it. Photos later if I remember to take a picture of it. Anyway, my camera is excellent (Panasonic FX-07). However, the files are gigantic and take ages to share. It already takes ages to copy them to my computer. I guess I need a 1GB thumbdrive for quick file sharing.

I can't believe I'm starting school tomorrow. I have no mood for that. I have no mood for anything. I just want to chill. I just want to slack. I'm becoming a meanie (or rather I have already become a meanie). I slowly let myself slide into that. I watch it happening and figure it's within limits until I realize it has plunged into meanieism. What I am I doing about it? Don't ask me. I'm one hell of a confused kid - just like all the other kids I used to criticise.

Sometimes in a crowd, you may feel lonelier than if you were alone. Loneliness and being alone is simply 2 separate states that should not be confused one for the other. When I'm silent, it's probably for the better. Don't try to talk to me. I'm trying to control myself. Every word that comes from my mouth is injected to the brim with seething anger. I'm one angry kid so just let me be silent. It's better for all of us. What the hell am I angry about? Nothing. As I said, I'm confused. Let me be. I just need to study. Let me study. I don't want to think about anything but studying and more studying, school related activities and 3 girls on the road activities.

Anyway, my father either reads my mind or really thinks the same way as I do. He bought me a bluetooth headset for my handphone and made some changes around the house that I always wished I would change. We're very similar. That's why one day, I don't think he will be left confused when I go on and do something unexpected from society's point of view.

A few laughs, a therapeutic drive around Singapore and some alcohol should have gotten me back on track. Tomorrow will be a better day.

P.S. I'm going on strike against colouring my blog entry today. I don't feel colourful at the moment. Back to work, goodnight.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007


For the first since I don't know when, I felt very free after completing all my bidding this morning. I did not know what to do so I practised some guitar and fiddled with the keyboard.

After that, I watched tv till pQ called and we went to Queensway! We had a feast at IKEA and I finally bought a pair of dark coloured shoes (Nike, for trail running) at a stunning price of $69!!!

I went for training in the evening. I was on duty today, but no one came for training, so Jimmy, Siew Peng and I sat down to watch Deathnote!

Tuesday, January 02, 2007


After I made my collection for my duffel bag at Harbourfront, I intended to go to Sentosa to tan but the sky was cloudy so I headed to rZ's place. We watched a vcd and slacked. rZ wanted to run so I cycled with her. That was a good bicycle! I like it! We went for dinner at Chomp Chomp and pQ joined us there. Gosh, we ate so much (sting ray - $12, hokkien mee, BBQ chicken wings, carrot cake, white rice). I also drank a phenomenal amount of sugarcane juice!!! Anyway, pQ extorted my jacket from me! She left me no choice and I had to hand it over. She claims she'll freeze in the movie theatre. It'll be in her custody till I see her in school. Tsk.

Anyway, a butterfly flew into my house that day. I caught it with my bare hands! It's fun! I let it out of my house after that.

Reminder to Jaime: You'd better get excercising (regularly) after Hong Kong!!!

Monday, January 01, 2007


Gosh, we woke up so late today. Hmm, like around 1.30pm? After waking up, we discussed about transport routes and getting around in Hong Kong as well as the amount of money we're going to spend. Sheesh, it's a rather large amount.

Anyway, before I forget, for all those NUS students out there, 'three girls on the road' will be holding a fund raising project at the Sports Bazaar at Central Forum from 12noon to 6pm from 17th to 19th January. Please do lend us your support (especially since the arts canteen will be closed and we're selling food - Subway-style sandwiches, cookies, etc)! We assure you good food! Don't worry, I'll put up a reminder post nearer to the date!