The desire to excel. The passion to dedicate. The determination to see it through.

Friday, October 31, 2008


Had AWC Bi-Monthly today. Shot 365/400. Think it was quite fun. I like Halloween. Haha. Quite scores seem to matter less and less. I have other things to concern myself with. Shooting is something I do for fun anyway, so it should stay fun!

Don't think. One day at a time..

Thursday, October 30, 2008


Went to Vivocity this evening. Probably the most anticipated outing in the entire calendar year. Enjoyed it since I decided to leave all my worries at their rightful geographical location! The simplest things in life often go unappreciated but not today.

Sometimes you don't have to and can't solve everything on your own. You just have to go in with your best intentions and things may turn out unexpectedly pleasant. What I've learned and observed to be impossible.. simply.. crumbles. Nothing is logical. Nothing is impossible. Relief is an understatement.. *keeping my fingers crossed*

Learning something is easy.. Unlearning something on the other hand...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008


Played a bit with the gun grip this evening. Feels better! Spent quite some time (about 30min) reading Chinese with da jie teaching me! Haha. Gosh. Seriously. It wasn't event text.. was a schedule of some sort. The words I best understood were.. names.. Haha. I practically have no idea what the other 90% means. I took 30min to read a schedule on a single page of A4 paper. Wow. I would have take like less than 5min if it was in English. Well, but it's like a puzzle. Kinda challenging (for me anyway). Rather amusing that I struggle like crap with what others take to as second nature. Oh well!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008


Drove manual transmission for the first time in 3 years! The last time I drove manual was when I still had my L plate on. Not bad, I didn't forget at all! It's time to race...!!

Monday, October 27, 2008


It's not about what you want.. T'was never about that.

To give is to step out of your comfort zone.

God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
If I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.

Sunday, October 26, 2008


Ran some errands today. Decided to slack so went to Paulaner with Ruiz!

Saturday, October 25, 2008


Spent 1/2 the day in lab and the other half having a meeting till 1am!!!

Friday, October 24, 2008


Today, I experienced an instant headache. Anticipation, rehearsing and praying for something really helps. This evening, I completed a feat I was never able to do so in my entire life.. He granted me strength and grace. Do I have the ability? How much can I do? How much am I willing to sacrifice? How intelligent is this decision? Sometimes, we have to think with the heart. If he brought me to it, he will see me through it..

Two things I must complete before I head to the next life. Everything else is secondary. It doesn't matter if I drew a big fat salary. Doesn't matter about what I've achieved. Suddenly, everything pales in comparison. I was imagining the end. I keep thinking I'm going to die in a motor accident. Kept thinking about what I would want to do at that point in time, drawing the last few breaths of life. I find that an honest reflection at the final moments reveals the most important things in life. The ultimate goals in life, and they're often very different from what you spend your time pursuing.

When it's crunch time.. who do you fall back on? Who will be there to break your fall? It's really hard to tell in advance. You'll only know for sure when it happens. The cards have been dealt. Now, how do you play your hand?

Embrace challenges. Embrace life..


Thursday, October 23, 2008


"’T is man’s to fight, but Heaven’s to give success."
- Alexander Pope

Wednesday, October 22, 2008


"People think it must be fun to be a super genius, but they don't realize how hard it is to put up with all the idiots in the world."
- Calvin & Hobbes

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


Gotta Be Somebody by Nickleback

Monday, October 20, 2008


On the hunt for oil..

Went to:
  • Sheng Shiong near NUS
  • Marketplace, Paragon
  • Cold Storage, Takashimaya
  • NTUC, AMK Hub
  • Giant, Tampines
I think I only missed out Carrefour!

Sunday, October 19, 2008


Staying in Punggol makes me lazy to hang out and meet people. I think I'm becoming a heartlander. I don't remember staying home this much in my NUS life! Then again there's mountains of work and my regular friends are damn far away. Heh. Anyway, went to St Anne's church for the first time and I like it quite a fair deal not cos of the building but the people there - sincerely polite? I shall change parish to St Anne's. Quite blur this morning, drove into SJC without knowing it cos it's connected to the church. Reminder to self: thinking of going for YISS (11 to 14 December). LOL. Went training after that. HTNS is so far far away but I like driving so that's ok.

Anyway, this song always reminds me of the times I ran in the heavy rain, especially the times I whacked through MacRitchie. Soaking wet. Super shiok. There was once, my friend and I made an agreement only to run if there was really heavy rain there. It didn't rain but we ran anyway. Heh. I should go again in December. Hope the lightning doesn't kill me! This song makes me think of emergence. As for emergence from what, I don't know.

This is beyond empathy.

Through the Monsoon by Tokio Hotel

Saturday, October 18, 2008


Headed to NUS to get some work done in the morning then met pQ for lunch at Science canteen. Headed back and did housework! Scrubbed and cleaned practically every inch of my bathroom and bedroom. Vacuum, mop, scrub, spray, newspaper towel dry. Wah. Did some organization for my academic stuff too. Went to watch Max Payne (I always thought of it as Maximum Pain which I think that's what the producers meant it to be) with Ivan. Last minute, impromptu decision to watch. Didn't know it was showing until XY told me today. Haha. One man against the world. Victimised and not fearing death. I like the character. A walking manifestation from the tragedy of life. Having been a hard-core player of the computer game, I absolutely love the movie. It was the last game I really played on the PC. One of the best (if not the best) first player shooter games. I love the time freeze element which they used twice in the movie. That was the feature of the game which I liked most.

Anyway, it's Saturday night and what's Saturday night without beer?! I'm drinking beer now.. Root beer. Heehee. I've kicked hard-core drinking. Alcohol aversion. My liver spoke to me the other day. Heh. Anyway, I can get high(er) without the ethanol. My normal hyperism is way more than enough!

Sandra, our weight % calculations are amazingly accurate. With all weird densities in, it's precisely 20mL!!! WOW. Nicely.

Friday, October 17, 2008


Training was horrid. Haha. Oops. ANIWAY, was reading through some stuff. Nice to recollect some memories. I think people should keep a record of the good stuff. We (or at least I) tend to recall the negative. For my time in NUS, I held some regrets about my past decisions. I was thinking, if I'd chosen the other option, things would have been so different. For a particular decision, I read back to what I was thinking as my JC self. I had written my realization on why the choice I made was better. Upon reading that, I immediately agreed with my decision and have no regrets. Turning back the clock, I'd still make the exact same decision. In a certain sense, I deluded myself for a substantial period of time. It's also important to record the unbelievably good things that has happened. Our memories are our version of the truth, not the truth. I think the movie, "Vantage Point" would portray this very well. One scenario, various perspectives.

On a different note, I guess the most magnificent occurrence is nature. It has this awesome, drawing power. Just looking and realizing it's presence could uplift the spirit. Shall seek out nature in SG.

Thursday, October 16, 2008


Labbed until I wanna lub in the early early mornin`. Left school early due to feeling of lubbin`. Then decided to take some relaxin`. Wanted to go runnin' but felt I'd be running' (away). Did some cookin`. Ate somethin` relatively decent. Even went dessertin`. Tried feedin` the ego. Beyond problems-in`, now need solutions-out`. It's time to head back to muggin`.

FYP FYP.. Fourth Year Problem.
Only graduation will Free Your Pain.
Then it's off to..
Worthwhile Opportunities Requiring Knowledge.

It's ok, it's alright. Fight, fight, FIGHT!!!
Fulfill Your Potential!!!
Ok. Enough said. A little less conversation, a little more action.

P.S. My "g's" went to form my rah rah alliance in fueling my "Go's". Like, what is this kid sayin`?

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


More lab! Some training.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008


Start and end the day with lab! Hmm.

Monday, October 13, 2008


"The past is to be dropped not because it is bad but because it is dead."

Sunday, October 12, 2008


Had HTNS Monthly Shoot today. Hmm. Got a new PB! Funny that I took half a day before I realized it was a PB. Usually recognize PBs instantly. 367/400. As for process, much to be improved! Oh, I shot like six 10s in a row followed by a 9.9/10 and a 9.9! Haha. Then I shot a 7. =) Oh, the most hilarious part was that the "itsy bitsy spider" nursery rhyme broadcasted in my head while I loaded each shot for many shots! Even mouthed some of the words. Haha. What a thing to creep into my head! Damn funny but I think that kept me quite calm. Think that's how I shot my flood of 10s. Not implying I should sing nursery rhymes while I shoot. It was just.. funny.

The itsy bitsy spider went up the water spout.
Down came the rain, and washed the spider out.
Out came the sun, and dried up all the rain,
And the itsy bitsy spider went up the spout again.

I hope it's stuck in your head NOW!

Saturday, October 11, 2008


Attended the teamNUS Night this evening! Hmm. Nothing much to say about it except perhaps the standard "Congratulations to all winners!".

Bex on radio? 100.3FM? Haha. Ok, that's cool.

He wanted a castle in a faraway land,
A moat with shores of sand.
Meadows upon meadows,
Where horses and gazelles roam freely.
What he saw was himself in solitude,
His mindfulness was his world.

Yet he realized that was not what he desired to grasp.
What he truly desired was hope, peace and joy,
Buried beneath the dreams of stone and rubble.
He had it. He need only close his eyes and realize.
Basking in the warm glow of the sun..
What is real is what we cannot see.

Ask and you shall receive.
Seek and you shall find.
Knock and the door shall be opened unto you..

PlusOne for me today! (",)

Friday, October 10, 2008


Had test for Human Development Over the Lifespan. MCQ! I love the test. Tricky but fun! I like the subject matter quite a bit so.. that's cool.

In the evening was the Sports Club AGM! The food was really not bad this year!

Happie Birthday Julius!

PlusOne for me today! (",)

Thursday, October 09, 2008


Was wondering how Phiten works.

For information from a retailer: How it Works; Evidence. I believe it may be categorized under Energy Medicine. I have yet to find scientific evidence on how it works. Wasn't able to obtain papers from Scientifc Journals.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008


Faced the most complex moles calculations for my FYP today! Wah. Too mind-boggling. Luckily got Sandra! Haha! Can't believe we spent erm.. half the day.

Tuesday, October 07, 2008


Oops, think I owe these photos for some time already!
So many photos cos we were trying to be perfectionistic about it!

Monday, October 06, 2008


I had a 5-min test today. I think most of us studied till Notes Set 5. Just before the test, our lecturer announced that it was open-book and it was a 5-min test. Wah. Shocked man but pleasantly surprised! The test question was interesting though: "For potato chips with flavours BBQ, Cheese, Sour Cream and Onion, Spicy... Which one is suitable for vegetarians?" The answer is, ALL may be suitable! If only all tests were like this!

Sunday, October 05, 2008


Wah.. I burnt midnight oil doing a project on citrus aroma-active compounds!

PlusOne for me today! (",)

Saturday, October 04, 2008


Woke up early to do some project work! I had some time for a good breakfast before the AWC Committee Meeting. I had hot chocolate with marshmallows and quiche. The quiche was made by Jan & Pat and it was DAMN NICE. I wanna learn to make it too. But somehow, I think it'd taste nicer if someone else made it. The breakfast was really calming and relaxing. It felt peaceful especially since I was alone. It's been a while..

Friday, October 03, 2008


I realized you'd get a rush of blood to the head if you hold your breath for too long. I used to like hanging my head upside down when I was a kid! Hmm..

Thursday, October 02, 2008


Watched Mamma Mia! this afternoon with Sandra and Amanda Lee! The movie was good! Haha. There are just some folks that you see and your heart will light up! I was like a zombie the entire day till I met Sandra, Monika and Amanda and then I couldn't stop smiling! AL was funny. She asked, "Smile so much won't cramp meh?".

Wednesday, October 01, 2008


Cooked with Pat in the evening. Family came over! I took ownership of some orange sauce chicken! We ate a variety of cheese with excellent port wine (the wine was my donation, hehe). Taylor's 2001 Ruby port. I like the peppered cheddar. The smoked gouda was not bad too! Nice nice. Gosh. We just needed apricots! Dipping fresh apple slices seemed nice too! It was a good evening. I've been sleeping and I woke up at 3+am and decided to blog. Crazy? Haha. Oh well. That's life. That's my life.

Living things need food, air, water and shelter. The following are my rather incomplete definitions from the human world.

Food - Food equals known and unknown chemicals which may be modified by digestion, adsorption and metabolism and is culturally and socially bound to define what is deemed as edible. People don't just eat for living. Some eat for status.

Air - Oxygen either from the air or dissolved in water is required for respiration. Clean, unpolluted air.

Water - Enough said.

Shelter - Home. A safe place to live. A place you can just be yourself and you'll be accepted anyway - freestyle.

I think I just headed back down on Maslow's hierarchy of needs. My focus has shifted I've decided to give up on some things. Oh well! I'm no longer going to question my somewhat dramatic life. Let's just make the best of it. I'm the only one who can make this happen.

It's ok. My FST mates think I'm not human. Haha. They were amazed when I had to head to the toilet. And THAT amazed me.

Family - the basic social unit. Suddenly I feel socialized. It's not that I haven't been seeing people, it's just that I haven't had a connection for a long time. No offence, it's me. I seem to keep hanging out on my own. Most of my meals ( I keep a food journal for my module) are eaten alone and besides that I have little social time? Suddenly my academics have paled in comparison to a lot of things in life. Give it your best in everything you do - I highly believe in that so yeah. Motivation. I'm going to enjoy each day of my life even though it's like the most xiong period in my NUS history and I've never slacked this much in NUS history but slacking is worth it. Like I said, there are more important things in life. Academics ain't the only thing that's important. Don't get me wrong. I love what I'm studying and I love studying. It's just that I have other things I love in life. That's just me at 4.15am. And now it's 4.45am. Back 2 sleep! Good morning, good night!